A day with mixed feelings

Gonna be posted to NUH for attachement. okay
seperated form my close friends.
still sad about it but i cant do anything so i should just accept it :)
i know the Lord will help me through this period too <3

SIX MONTHS have flown by quickly.

iTS BEEN MORE THAN 3 MONTHS OF SCHOOL

Thank you Jesus for pulling me through <3

Now its da well deserved holidays wooo to the hooo ;) 

tomorrow= work and lunch with da rabbit <3

havent seen her for 3 months and i really miss her );

then staying over at rs's house on fri and saturday going cca

sunday go church

Mon go foodhunt

tues to saturday camp all the way

next week, camp again omg :DD 

EXCITED

etcetc

Jesus i really need u now..

i dont know what is this.

mixed feelings.

help me.

ty jesus

<3

<3

<3

So hot and stuffy here :p

Dear Jesus, I want a big hug now.. Thank u Lord, Amen <3

Thank you so much Lord for helping me all the time ^^ <3 !
its so hard to trust and get truely close to people, but i can only trust and get 100% close to Jesus <3

I wish i had my own room because i can relax and just be private 

instead of having people come in and out and snoop around your stuff everyday, being nosey about whatever ure doign and asking you tons of questions 

gets disturbed= close door= gets nagged= open door= gets disturbed
aint whining just saying

i know im imaginative- However im realistic

i want a room that has an Earth and Animal theme

 is light yellow/turquoise/bluegreen&violet

one plant/ lavender flowers

light cream/yellow curtains to represent the sun

light yellow canvas flooring

a big rug in the middle

a study desk and shlaves at the side

and no room is complete without animals liek dogs and cats <3

with a huge cloud shaped fluff bed, one that you could sink 30 cm into lol

trying to keep on a Vegan diet now. No more meat milk cheese and eggs for a month :D 

Some people

Dear God, sometimes I feel so sad for some people. ):

Only Jesus I want.

I am so Joyous because of the Holy Spirit.
I am not worriesome now because of the Holy Spirit
I am not Burderned now Because of The Holy Spirit
I am not afraid because of the Holy Spirit
I am loving and caring because of the Holy Spirit
I am more secure than before because of the Holy Spirit
I am more concerned of others now because of the Holy Spirit
I am more Generous now because of The Holy Spirit
I am capable now because of The Holy Spirit
and so so so much more ^-^

Yesterday's church session was great.

4/5 pastors were there, but only pas Madeleine and the angmoh pastors were speaking

The worship was great and there was a presence and aura of God in the church.

I was sick and drowsy from medication, and the aircon was cold. At the start of the 3rd or 4th song, i felt a pair of hands on my shoulders, they were Warm. I looked and saw No physical hands there and I thought it was the random warmness that comes on, but no. the pair of hands lasted on my shoulders for 4 seconds before going off and it was so evident..  Thank u holy spirit for Warming me even though it was for a few seconds xDDD

AND. halfay through pastor judy's preaching, Jacelin spotted a crystal on the drapery of our church :O

tHOSE ARE THE CRYSTALS FORM HEAVEN THAT PASTOR MADELEINE ALWAYS TALKS ABOUT. everytime when she preaches crystals and gold dust will be eveident, even Manna (the bread tasting of honey) form heaven and wine also! 

I really dont like wine at all , but the wine we tasted from heaven was so nice! just the rigth amount of sweetness an dnot a bit bitter to me at all. nobody can make anything better than Jesus xD  

Jesus i am so happy to have experienced and known you!

Thank you for rescueing me out of the darkness <3

Thank u for making me a compassionate and warm hearted soul <3

There is another session tonight at 7.30 pm and i am EXCITEDDD to experience God again.

I pray that todays speech and the whole thing will be even even more evident and better than yesterday.

I want to be relaxed in His presence and forget about the world around me. and not a single distraction at all